sam ran ahead...and broke my heart

sam

march 1, 1999-january 27, 2007

i took sam and maya to hike in the blue ridges before returning to new zealand. not sure exactly what happened, but he got sick in the house after he and maya returning from 'checking the grounds' at 142 sparks road.
i let him out to be sick, waited all night for him. then some friends brought him to me the next morning when they found him.
it really sucks because he was the coolest jumping dog in the world.
he finished his awesome life where he started it...

stewarts mountain view hospital in spruce pine.

maya and the oyster girl are heartbroken and gutted.

the zone 2....emo on ice

highlights from last weeks first annual emo on ice auntie neice nowboard adventure.
brought to by
the letter 'G' for goo goo dolls and
the number 18 for number of rides on the lift in an eight hour period.

highlights include:
-jumping the hump that broke my wrist several years before
-awesome weather
-remembering how much i love this stuff
-some guys believing i was 22
-dinner at scott's pizza place...wait, that was really bad

happy riding ...

bored gypsy oyster...

i've been living out of one medium suitcase for the last six months.

if i go there will be trouble, if i stay there will be double...

Darling you gotta let me knowShould I stay or should I go?
If you say that you are mineI'll be here 'til the end of time
So you got to let knowShould I stay or should I go?
Always tease tease tease
You're happy when I'm on my knees
One day is fine, next is black
So if you want me off your back
Well come on and let me know
Should I Stay or should I go?
Should I stay or should I go now?
Should I stay or should I go now?
If I go there will be trouble
An' if I stay it will be double
So come on and let me know
This indecision's bugging
If you don't want me, set me free
Exactly who'm I'm supposed to be
Don't you know which clothes even fit me??
Come on and let me know
Should I cool it or should I blow??
Should I stay or should I go now??
If I go there will be trouble
And if I stay it will be double
So you gotta let me know
Should I stay or should I go??


i think the clash has said it best here.
there was also a church sermon i attended yesterday entitled "you can't go home"

wow, how poignient. and for the first time, and even in a baptist congregation to boot, has the Lord left me with even more indecision. i guess God did create ROS also along with all the other stuff resulting from the garden of eden.

yikes, this is tough.

the zone...monday morning emo

i'm bridging two generations,
somehow i'm proud of this...

still recalling when the phrase 'emo' referred to emo phillips while listening to emo on the radio...

http://www.fourfa.com/

http://krunk1.xmission.com/~trevin/Emo.html



















i'll save 'skr-emo' for another day...
i'm too dark and depressed.
lol

in responce and awareness...

it's a shame when you get to that point.
when we were younger, everything was dramatic and at least passionate.
now it's all practicalities.

i guess knitting has become my 'mental rosary' and i forsee lots of knitting in the coming weeks. i think i took up knitting because it's such an anal craft for perfectionists. then i realise i am so loosey goosey with my knitting, so it safely balances out the uptight attitude i have towards all the other areas in my life.
hmm.

btw:
High Point is having it's first inclement weather of 2007.
i realised it was exactly these days 2 (or maybe 3 by now) i travelled to HP to do a sight analysis for my architectural thesis project. that was also one of those years when december and january seemed to hover around the 70 degree mark. then i came to town for this documentation...and there was a significant ice storm. my nephew and i trekked in the cold for several hours, we got lots of bad photos and several good laughs.
i also got a spa facial during both of these weekends,
maybe HP isn't so bad after all.

i knew he would follow...

for those who know me...

this is so me:

"My brain likes to run on autopilot as much as possible to free up energy for daydreaming and fantasizing and worrying."
CAP